On Baby A's birthday, the c-section surgery went as planned. I walked into the OR around 9:30am and was pushed out around 2 hours later. W was instructed to wait outside while the team was getting me prepared for anesthesia. He then got invited to come in and sat next to me while the team worked on getting Baby A out of me 😂. W was a good DJ and Baby A was born while Taylor Swift's Shake It Off was being played. So...did I feel any pain during this life-changing surgery? No, I didn't. I had a spinal block. I never felt any type of pain during the surgery. Getting the anesthesia injected - however - was the most uncomfortable part of the surgery. There was a lot of pressure. I felt my back being pulled or pushed, or something. It just felt very uncomfortable, not painful, but very uncomfortable. It was also hard to try leaning toward the source of that uncomfortableness. Learning to relax while being uncomfortable was a very hard thing to do. But it was necessary. Once it...
It's been more than a week. I miss the first half of April. I miss you, Taylor & Teegan.
We planted flowers in honor of you two. The colors are very pretty. I thought of the days when I watered the yard with you both still inside me. I miss the first half of April because we were all so very happy. I imagined about days when we will play in the yard. I thought about how funny it would be when you two try to reach for Beibei and Lulu's tails as you crawl on the floor. I thought about how great it would be to see all of you napping next to each other. I know that day is never going to come anymore but you'll always be with me in my heart. Mommy loves you and misses you.
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